LOL...funnie title huh...but that is wat I like her calling mi "Toopid Boi" and after that singing the song "BB fat fat, BB fat fat..."...haha...tink of it...its funnie....
chatted with Ailing of again last nite...she is realli a great lady.....can be a bery good fren de...she tells u everything and listen to everything...haha...maybe thats her job.? well....we shared abit of relationship thingy...she had some problem as well...I told her my intention of doing something...she sae juz go ahead and do wat her heart tells u to....yes! thats me....Yupz...back to the toopid ting again....i dunnoe y....maybe under the influence of alchohol...i decided to sms him before slping.....ha.....yes...him....i said:
"Dear Mr XXX, im jason here. XXX ex bf. tis sms is not to find u trouble. juz a simple request frm mi. pls pls pls take gd care of clar. i know u can de. she is a nice gal. it has been my mistake all these while tat changed her. she has likings for u as well. so jiayou k? all the best. treat her well. u can dun reply tis sms. juz for ur info. gd nite. swt dreams and take care."
Actually, tis sms is onli meant for him...i didnt want her to know....arghz...toopid mi again...she called....i dunoe how he told her...i dun even know if he got read my sms properly anot...den go tell her i sms him...wth.....den she called immediately...i was areadi aslp and awoken by the ring ring tone...yeah...ring ring tone...act cute huh...lol....aniwae...im shocked to see her call mi at tis hour in the first place...tot got something happened on her....was worried...in the end, its abt the sms...she asked mi wat was the content...were u afraid tat i was threatening him or something? I dunnoe....i told her it was realli nothing...but in the end, i gave way again to her...i send her the sms i send him....wtf rite? defeats my purpose le...haiz...
think of it...maybe she realli cares abt him..immediately called me even though she knows i might be slping soon...i dunnoe....but at least i cleared her doubts...im a gentleman...i wouldnt do anything to him physically or even verbally....
aniwae, ailing mentioned that my the other half do not deserve me...i deserve better ones...i told her...."I hate this word...why all the gals like to say this kinda things to me?"...she goes on and say "she is still fickle...still likes to play..."...i said "i dunnoe...i neber thought she is...becoz we have tok abt marriage and even to the extent of buying house le. that is y i cant let go..."...yes...do u know, that nite when jeremy and nicholas gave their advise abt marriage and buying house plan...i felt so so close to you...i felt so so sweet...after finish toking, you came and hug mi from behind while i was sitting on hush hush chair.....i felt like almost doing it immediately...yet i cant...i felt lousy...i do....i got no money....im lousy i admit...regretted not saving enuff....haiz...
reading her blog makes mi sad as well....again i didnt had lunch for today.....she was right..i know her best....so why leave mi den? but aniwae, becoz i know her best...i wish her all the best... i wish she can alwaes confide in me...irregardless of watever things......but im happie seeing one word...that one word in her blog calling me "hubby"...yupz...yes yes...im an idiot...okie...im toopid...but anything sweet coming out from her mouth, i will feel contented...yes...i alwaes tell her, im an easily contented guy...ha...dumb...i feel dumb...lol....seriously, i miss her alot...even till now...i miss her smile...i miss her lame actions and jokes...i miss everything of her...recently, i kept drinking...not becoz i wanna be drunk...but becoz i wanna divert away.....but apparently, when i rest from drinking and smoke outside...or stone for awhile, her images came straight back...almost immediately...den i have to hold back my tears...wth....y cant i be more man?! grrrrr....arghz...dun sae le.....im at customer place now.....dun wanna let them see my face change.....okie...back to work..drilling drilling drilling!
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