They have taken my grandma away from us....grandma has passed away this morning...was dam freakingly shock that sis called and tell me that in the morning...expected this would happened...but not this fast....no...
wished i can go down and help mum with the stuff.....wish my wifey can help...but she is still slping...she was home late last nite...i dunnoe y muz jie jiu xiao chou...instead, i feel shld have gone home earli and maybe could have prepared herself if i neeeded her help...
Maybe i shldnt tink tis way....its wrong to tink tis way...she had explained and had her own reasons....but still...2nd part of the disappointment is, im sad, shld have gone home to earli in order not to let mi worrie or misunderstand aniting...becoz im at all high level of emotional state....
Im now at home....rushing to bathe and rush down to bukit timah...i hate my company....hate them for not giving compassionate leave becoz "contract says immediate family doesnot include grandparents".,...wat the fuck!?!....den i still helping them to settle one customer issues....rush to thomson...i shld have left immediately....no...i have my responsibility...i am not like them...wats the use of giving flowers? F off....I hate myself...why didnt i visit my grandma more....why didnt i....why didnt i bring my wifey down more often to see her....why.....i miss my grandma..sori....cant continue...be back soon...
snoozed at 3:21 PM .
just hang up phone wif bb....dunnoe why...mi got no mood to tok...no even to mummy...haiz....sori bb....appreciated u called mi even though i can hear from the background that hush hush is busy today....crowed huh....
juz learned that bb still cant forget abt her ah ma whom have passed away for quite some time...so she is afraid after seeing my ah ma like tis would bring back some sad past to her mind...and plus even more from my ah ma...someting like tis...hope i didnt get it wrong....so she wanna avoid this situation...understandable bb...i wouldnt force u....no worries....
Im going to scan all my gathered name cards and give to bb...let her have more market to call out for her morning sales job....hopefully it will work out well...love...muacks....
snoozed at 11:43 PM .
feels funnie this morning....went any customer place, resolved issues quickly....hmmmm....in the end....i know why....becoz my grandma has passed all her luck to me....now...she is lying on the bed...unconcious.....grasping for air.....
I am bery bery sad....received sms from sis and mum....this afternoon...."doctor say ah ma situation worsen alot...." "be prepared..." "she is on breathing machine, breathing very heavily"...called bb ask her wanna follow mi go...but after hearing bb...think bb not in a good mood...so i changed my mind....but i regretted...i needed her by my side earlier on...
Rush to hospital, TTSH, after serving a customer at AMK industrial park 2A. Think of it...it may be god's arrangement. Manager last minute send mi to amk....and amk is near to novena where ttsh is at....When i reached there, saw ah ma in breathing mask, grasping for air....my heart sank...my heart aches terribly....eyes felt sourish....and yes....i cried...not onli once....but thrice everytime i walked back into the ward and look at my grandma....as im typing now....im thinking of her...i feel like crying again.....i tink of how my grandma was so fit yesterday, and today, she collasped. Went on Sunday to see her...luckily....she was still fine back then...although she frequently talked to herself and alittle bit of breathing difficulties, overall, she looked fine...she laughed too....how i wish i can see her laugh now.....................but bb wasnt with mi to see her on Sunday at old folks home...i wanna show ah ma she is the person i wanna marry....i wonder if there will be such a chance animore..im crying again....
Just reached home...sms bb...but no reply...guessed she was busy...or maybe high le...hahaha...my bb high le shout loud loud de...cute....i was expecting a call from her...or an sms....but nope....twice, when i needed her most, she was not wif mi......but i cant blame her fully...i didnt have the courage to speak out....coz i dun wanna her to worry too much...she has more than enough worries on her end....
oh...juz received an mms from bb...apparently, somebody drew garfield on the pool challenger blackboard....its sweet of bb....oh...bb called using video call.....nice...see bb face...temp forget abt sadness....love u bb..but i still wanna hug hug bb....hur hur...
snoozed at 11:12 PM .
oh man....at last...got alittle extra time to update my blog...on a pc for temp IT usage at customer place. hoho...busy busy neh....hmmm...im now at Japanese School in Changi....its a primary school and the kids all look very cute...even the toilet too...hahahaha...
Alrite...some flash backs ar....
Friday 25th July 2008
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My off day...but i was dam slack...coz the night before went drinking after my lesson...so wakie abit laggy...den delayed the timing till 4pm den meet up wif bb...to go swimming!!! hahaha...at long last...my bb "chong chu jiang hu"...ahahaha...came back from retirement....but den leh...when i reach bb place..bb haben even pack her swimming stuff...coz she said "eh...i retire so long le...dunnoe wat to bring"...ahahaha...so cute...so leh...mi open my bag and let bb refer to....
Den we quickly walked all the way to bukit batok swimming complex...i swam alittle...kanna suan by bb...ahahaha...coz my swimming posture wrong lahz...but seriously...my swimming posture totally wrong le...hoho....bb swim dam good...standard one..professional de...plus hor...my bb one time swim more than 10 laps!!! cool...its a beautiful sight to see bb swim...
Den...we went to pom pom of coz...and walked again to eat my bb fav hokkien mee....nice...chilli nice oso...ha...den leh....i went home to bath and change...den after that went to bb place...bb oso went to bathe, change and makeup...think took more than 1hr bah...haha...waited until i slp and her mummy came home too....hee...den we went hush hush again!!!! bo bian lahz..got open one bottle there...go there and drink lohz....save money...den in the end, my poor bb had to help out ting ting for 2hrs...duhz....supposedly is our night de ar....haiz...den lehz...we went to Acoustic to continue drinking...beer this time...hmmmmz...tink im trained gd gd by bb...drinking level went up le...hoho....den lehz....we spend the night out together *blush*. Just wanna spend every minute and second with bb when she is free..
Saturday 26th July 2008
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Nothing much happened on this day...went for soccer at night..kanna hit on the balls by Cedric's showroom guy...damz....but its okie...just a game....den after tat, pom pom le go down and look for bb...bb working on sat nite....so busy...poor bb....i drank and play game with Celsius and Leonard...new game...fun......den after that, send bb home...
Sunday 27th July 2008
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Went to see Ah Ma in the morning...ah ma look much much older le....den can see she is breathing more harder den before...poor ah ma...somemore...she started toking to herself....see le heart pain...think of it...wanna cry....poor ah ma....from young, marriage and until now...didnt had good life....muz treasure my mummy oso...hoho...
Den at night meet bb...wah...dam rushy...rush to jurong point take taka voucher...$30!!!!....den leh...went to take hp back from bb's laopo.....den lehz......rush down to funan centre again....take free 2GB iPod Shuffle...cute...purple color somemore orh! ahahahahaha...den had dinner at TCC with bb.....after that...went to Amoy st Suite18 for a Tower of Beer with my bb....i challenge her drink mah...ahahahaha...den went home....
YESTERDAY
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Had lesson at night after a busy day...went to Tuas again!!! arghz....after lesson, went to find bb...haha...but leh...i bluff bb sae i went home le....hoho...wanna give her surprise...juz wanna see her...acc her...be near her when she work....didnt drink last nite....
haha....alright...thats all folks....tink i beta make sure i update my blog as soon as possible...if not, one blog with hell lotsa infos....not good for my audience eyes wor...hoho.....bye...mish my bb!!! Going dinner myself later...no one respond again to my dinner invitation...ahahaha...haiz..duhz....
snoozed at 3:40 PM .
At long last...can start updating my blog. Waited for manager and boss to leave the office...ha...freedom!!!! Realli spend alot of time wif my bb. My bb realli changed alot. Gave mi alot of time...alwaes finding time to spend wif mi...even though she is tired...which i can see...heart pain..she gave mi a surprise on sundae....so shock...sooo sweet....she called mi on Sundae afternoon, after i wakie....said she is at her blk downstair buying sometings....den, suddenly, she said "OK, you can now open your house door"...ahahahaa...ta dah! she is right at my doorstep le...nice...den spend the whole sundae wif bb...bb helped mi wif my quotation to a customer while she plays her cabal...den we went for late supper at macdonalds....*evil*...hoho
Den leh...Mondae, i on MC...went to bb place in the morning...watched tai wang shi shen ji....den slpt abit coz sinus loh...irritating...den woke up...continue to watch...nice man...getting more and more exciting...hee...bb slpt the whole dae on mondae...maybe raining lahz...so shiok to slp...see bb slp....so cute...hoho....den I went to sch to collect my books...sooo heavy...left at bb place before we went down to hush hush...accompany bb there till 11pm...den i went home...and rest...
Seriously, bb had gave up alot of her working time for mi...Seriously appreciate...I oso neber regret giving her all my time....wif bb ard...its alwaes bery pleasant..happie....love to make bb luff...coz when bb luff, its like not going to stop de...LOL....hope my bb can alwaes be this cheerful.....love u...she juz called mi in the morning...having nightmare wor...poor ting....everyting is gonna be alright b, coz there is tigger wif u....hee
Alright, end of story..gotta get back to work...tonite is working hard on starting my business...hopefully i can get the deal oso.....hoho
snoozed at 10:44 AM .
YOz....backside pain....went toilet and shit in the morning before work...backside pain....coz of last nite ma la steamboat i guess....ahahaha...but funnie ting is...the ma la steamboat not that spicy....if i feel not spicy...den surely my bb got no kid.....ahahaha...coz my bb is a spice master!!!
Spend my whole night after work with bb...bb had headache in the morning...hmmm..poor thing...must be not enough sleep....I went to LAMA centre after work to close a possible deal on website creation....doing middle man thingy for my friend...can earn commission from there...then went to meet bb to go for ma la steamboat...after steamboat...we went for a short drink..guess wat? its back at hush hush for drinks again!!!! arghz.....
Played pool with bb...lost to her...which im alwaes willing to....hee...sang with bb....bb hug mi alot last nite...felt so loved....xing fu feeling...hoho...now back at work...boring...waiting for time to pass den go to customer place in the afternoon....later tonite going to hush hush again...drink and wait for my love....cant bear not to see her for one day...
oh...btw, hush hush has expanded my network alot...knew alot of good friends there...brothers and sisters....hahaha....here are the list of nominees (1st come 1st serve basis...LOL):
1. Evon, Shawn, Kailun, Patrick
2. Jack and Sam
3. Cedric and Jeff
4. Celsius and Ting
5. Andy and Annabelle
6. Ah Qiang and Kenneth
7. Ong Lai (My Bitch)
8. Darick, Ah Chai, Gavin
9. Koen (My Slut)
10. Lawrence
snoozed at 9:53 AM .
Arghz!!! Just managed to settle down....Lets look at the time, hmmm, 1030pm le!!!!! left customer place (Tuas) at 830pm....reached home 915pm...ate and pom pom....haiz...tiring...how to study when sch starts...more and more responsibilities at work....
Kanna told off by manager through sms....made my mood even worse.....he sae i got no responsibility!!! Didnt update him when the issue was solved. Made him go back to office when i called for help. Sae if i not in good mood, den y bother to call him for help in the first place. I oso dunnoe y i called him in the 1st place...shldnt have...called sean and solved the issue quickly....toopid....haiz....den the manager said i made him wait and wait...den after that onli sms him its solved....didnt call and tell him how... but the problem is...im not in a good mood le...if i call him...surely quarrel de...if i am not a responsible person...i wouldnot have stayed and resolve the customer issue....im disappointed....aniwae, i didnt call him coz he will ask mi to do other tests which are all nonsense...he alwaes go one big round and I might even end up home even later with no dinner!!!! eh guys, no O.T. pay de hor....and its the company stingy with us engineer in the first place....so we stingy back oso lohz...
haiz...sooo many tings to sae...wanna talk to bb...but bb with nabeiz....yesh...her fren....not scolding you all lahz...its her fren's nick....so i dun wanna disturb bb...den called bb again...but bb rushing into hush hush to work le....wanna complain de....bad mood...tired...but its okie...i dun wanna pressure bb...dun wanna let bb tink so much....
juz sms bb...told her im tired....but its combination of all....alot of tingy...hoho....but im going to get over it fast de lahz...like troubleshoot pc issues...i can self resolve de...no problem!! muahahaha....nothing can pull mi down.....no worries....alright guys...update again later or tomolo bahz...nitez!
snoozed at 10:19 PM .
I LOVE U BB!!!
hee...my bb still slping...she is tired...im heart pain...aniwae, finish my noodles le...still got alittle time to blog...arghz..now im addicted to it le...die die die...haha...had my cold medicine...shld help ease the problem away....Shld oso stop complaining...tooppid mi...hur hur....everyday oso complain this complain that...like woman like tat...ahahaha...
Alright...leaving office now...tok to u guys again...eh...btw, u guys are???? LOL...bye!!!
snoozed at 12:08 PM .
Im in the office now working...wif sinus....haiz...toopid nose...part of tis tat spoilt my dae....haha...slpt at 1am last nite...den woke up suddenly at 2am again. Too worried abt my bb....woke up and saw my bb sms...she left hush late...cant blame her...gotta entertain customer...oso hazel first dae of work...gotta be wif her more...show her more..
Chatted wif bb abit until she reaches home...felt at ease...alwaes worried abt my bb coz i care abt her every minute and seconds of the day....wanna protect her whenever, wherever i can...so leh...dun wanna her get high too easily last nite...coz i know she will mix drinks...so keep reminding abt her theory...sori bb..
Aniwae, came to work...so many tings...so many customers keep looking for mi too...arghz...soo popular...shld have join singapore idol...sure win de...muahahaha...Got one customer even ask mi to intro her jap customer as she is quitting to become property agent loh...duhz...maybe i will help as she promised money returns to me....for extra income, i wouldnt mind....cant help lahz..its my job also...Customer service...IT support...haiz...now reformatting two pcs....multi-tasking...hoho...
areadi not gd mood coz of nose....den saw the toopid unknown guy degrading mi over bb tag..haiz....i cant scold back...if not, the issue wouldnt stop...oso promised bb not to le....oso dun wanna blow it all up...small issue.....so now even more bad mood...hoho....but toopid mi oso lahz..shldnt have started saying him....bery wrong...shld leave him as he is....suspecting its one of bb's suitors...ahahahahaha...btw, tot bb would sae him back...but bb thanks him for his compliment instead...sobz...i understand y...maybe bb dun wanna stop all these nonsense...hee...so, it onli means its my fault...hoho...sorry unknown....i lost....lose man face...hoho....aniwae, not going to bother much abt tis lahz....gotta finish my noodles fast fast...gotta rush to the bird cannot lay egg place - TUAS!!! arghz...cheers!
snoozed at 11:40 AM .
Good Morning People!!!
Spend the whole dae wif bb yesterdae...so nice...bb play cabal at my home....i update blog...bb went home haf dinner wif mum....den meet mi up again for kopi...intro bb one of my best long time friend, ruixin.....had good talk...bb came up my place again and watch tai wang shi shen ji.....episode 7......hoho....den bb went home herself....so worried...so call bb on hp and chit chatted while she is on her way home.....den continue chatting wif bb over msn....
den i continue watching tai wang shi shen ji.....but still cant get to slp...hate sundaes...hate mondaes too....haiz....so ended up reading all 167 smses tat was from bb....looked at all our photos....den abit tired le....forced myself to slp....hahaha...damz....
snoozed at 12:10 PM .
Some personal feelings...some sudden tots....was recollecting in mind....who are my best frens....had alot of frens...knew from alot of place....but onli few can make it to my heart....onli some...i regard as the best of best frens...buddies....but hope its not one sided though....here are the list (might have left some pple out...but its not on purpose....surely its my absent mindedness, LOL):
1. Alex aka Qingyu (Long time neighbourhood brother)
Duration: 14years
2. TayRuixin (Long time secondary sch brother but seldom contact each other)
Duration: 12years
3. Ivy (Knew her through part time DBS credit card roadshow, pretty ah lian and sister to me)
Duration: 7years
4. Shiwei (My ex colleague and senior)
Duration: 3years
5. Travan, Xuan xuan, Karen Juliana, Aoki san (Travan is my ex gf's colleague but has alwaes been there when im down...hope i have been doing the same to you bro)
Duration: 1year
snoozed at 5:18 PM .
at last...I got my own blog le....have to blog abit lahz...otherwise outdated...not like travan lah...or worse...xuan...totally no blog de....wait will get isolated away by the world..
Haha...had alot of tings happening these past 2 days. But no worries...all good tings. Lets start with the following:
Friday, 11th July 2008
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Send my colleague off at airport. My Japanese colleague. Aoki san!!! Zhen de mah!? Si Meh?! ahahaha..these are the only mandarin he can say. LOL. Oh! I miss him alot! He has been, so far, my best friend and brother from another nationality. But he is away now, permanently, to india to station there. Our company have a new branch there and he has to go. Took some photos together. 2ml den upload bah. Send him that time, no sad. But leh...after seeing the card he gave mi, i teared alittle on the cab. haiz...hope to see him soon. Oh, by the way, he took budget airline. Tiger airway. I asked why tiger? He replied "BUdget company, budget airline!" LOL. Funnie guy.
Took cab to HUsh hush after sending Aoki san off. Was ealier den my bb. bb abit late. SHe came with her kor. Den mi call out to bb, she no reply and went in straight to hush hush with someting in her hands. Tot bb angry...but her ah kor bao doh her....LOL...said she bought someting for mi. LOL....den her ah kor went off...haiyo....sad he went off...its alwaes fun to drink wif him...
Aniwae, i continue guessing wat my bb bought for mi....oh oh...wait wait...juz to inform you guys, its our 3mths anniversary loh! hahaha...phew...pass my probation period...LOL...yupz..continue guessing...have been tinking its chocolate...dunnoe y....den, suddenly, i tot its ipod....but its not....den continue to guess its chocolate...ahahaha....in the end...guess wat? Its a dam beautiful Braun Buffel Wallet lohz....wow!!!!! I was so so so so touched....i realli dunnoe how to describe my feeling...felt so freakingly happie...
Den i realise someting...maybe im holding on bb tooo dearly....demanding her to pei mi when she has the spare time....demanding alot of tings....all becoz i love her alot and dun wanna lose her....but den leh...in the process...i discovered i took away her time for her mum, her frens, the tings she wans to do....Im sori bb.......and leh...i seriously looking forward to doing everyting with u....maybe its no longer the lifestyle u r seeking for....but i hope i can revive it back...hee
oh oh..continue the Friday story ar...Bb worked until eye pain pain....faster send bb home....bb poor ting...see le heart pain....haiz...toopid eye lash! muahahahaha....reached home le...almost cant slp..keep smiling....ahahaha...
Saturday, 12th July 2008
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Our 3mths anniversary is today....continued to be bery happie even though i have to force myself to wakie at 9am to go work.....after work...went to "More than Words" but bluff bb sae im on the way to her place...guess wat? I bought one bery big tigger (winnie the pooh) for bb! ahahahaha....den took cab straight to her place....ask her open the door and ta dah!!!...bb bery surprise...hee....but hor...bb sae dun like soft toys....sobz....bought wrong stuff again le....but still...tigger is bb fav character...so it still turns out well....juz bought it for bb coz i keep imagining....bb putting tigger at the corner of her bed.....looking over her when she slps and can let bb hug hug to slp when needed...keke
Continue ar....den we went to my place....rest....nua.....den went to pasar malam..bought stuff to eat....rest...nua again...wah..die lahz...we realli love to nua....oh oh...bb saw a gucci bag at pasar malam...actually hor...wanna tell bb dun buy de....coz im planning to buy a bag for bb....but not sooo soon.....but at least its the real one...dun wanna bb carry fake ones...but den leh..bb bag spoiling le...so bo bian....but still....i can still buy nice nice bag for bb...BB! Stay tune for it orh! muahahaha....
den lehz...we went down hush hush...at 12 midnite! again?!!!! one week got down almost everyday....going to womit milk le...muahaha....well..todae different...opened macallen....cool....den drink macallen le made bb a philosopher...bb confirmed a theory....macallen cannot mix with other tings...get high easily! ahahahaha...arghz! forgot to take alot alot of pic wif bb last nite...keep playing pool...haiyooo...toopid mi...shld pei bb more.....but den, still played alot of fingers guessing games wif bb.....i tink our level the same.....ermz...no...im still lousier den bb....bb won more i guess....hoho....den hor...i went bb place to slp leh! yipee!!!! hug hug bb to slp...so comfy.....even no hug oso feel comfy....
Today morning wakie hor....got scared...my bb not beside mi!!!! arghz....so sad....den, bb came back in again...sooo happie...hoho...crazy mi hor......die le....maybe bb not, but im so deep into this love le...serious...can feel it....im a bery woman man...and my bb, a manly woman...LOL....eh..so we neutralise lohz...ahahahahaha...simply love how we can alwaes bring out tings and sort it out when we quarrel wif each other...we can alwaes resolve issues quickly,..this is something i love abt it sooo much....thank u bb...thanks for alwaes giving in to mi....
Now im back home le...bb beside mi...playing cabal....my bb is a cabal expert...although alwaes play cheat....but still an expert in playing cheat...LOL...no lahz...joking...felt so xing fu....hope i can give bb eternal xing fu-ness...she deserves it...later bb going meet her mummy makan.....wait for bb...see later can la kopi anot lohz...hee...if no, its okie....hee
snoozed at 4:27 PM .
