didnt realli slp alot last nite...but still manage to AUTO wakie this morning...with eyes big big sia...ahahaha...dunnoe y...funnie..
Liverpool lost....haiz...disappointed...eugene asked, "should we sack ben?" lol....i think we shld manz....drank at autosport...was pretty disappointed when i reached autosport...i was like walking very fast....maybe i tink too much...was hoping i could see her there...i was hoping she will like go there and watch liverpool match since i areadi confirm and told her i will be there...i expected too much.....y shld i expect from her in the first place...y shld i even hope in the first place (to be exact)......she has areadi left mi....yet i craved to see her......aniwae, luckily she wasnt there...Liverpool lost...waste of time...arghz..
her photo still remains as my hp screen saver...seriously, she didnt know abt that i guess...actually, last time, she has been seeing liverpool logo as screen saver...in fact, at the real screen, our photo is in there.....every single nite, i will read her smses......i will see back all our photos...every nite...even till last nite...i guess i will be doing that every nite..maybe....toopid? yes......
last nite was a lonely drive back home....i cant help turning my head to the left to see if she was there...i imagined she was there...smiling..joking....putting her right hand on my lap.....nice.....i miss that...was that juz a daily procedure to me? nahz...it is not a daily procedure..its a process during our love that cannot be forgotten......aniwae, i almost slpt while driving...LOL....knn...
i was toking to ailing of autosport last nite...she told mi abt her r/s...so nice....she said she wouldnt leave him nor betrayed him coz she treasured the r/s, she treasured the care, the "teng" from her bf....but still, woman are woman...she clarified that she would still leave him if he carries on his bad ways....yah...realli bad ways.....long story......but den again...nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai......its a confirm theory which i neber wanna heed.....i tried to overturn tis theory...but its too in mi...i cant change...i will never change....
alrite...didnt have my lunch again todae...no appetite...almost no strength for ani other tings...but yet...i put up a strong front for customer, colleagues, family.......i dun wanna them to worry...its my problem...not theirs..i still have to work...i still have to....im going to max myself.....study work study work...i tink i can....aniwae, tink of it...didnt realli had ani proper meals or slp lately....i guess that helps numb the pain within.....
i chatted abit with susan tis morning over msn.....i told her most probably my chance is over...she asked "den wat r u going to do now?"...i replied "I will wait...".....I tell myself, at least we are frens now.....even if we r not together, i still wish to remain as fren...so that i can see you from the side...i can anitime be by ur side when u need someone to be....i dun mind.....yes yes...im dumb...im toopid....but i had no choice...i told susan "i areadi regard her as my future wife. I can onli wait." oh...im planning something for her....some nice surprises coming...when have never done that before in our r/s....she did as well...i love the perfume surprise...i indeed have....yupz...tats it...going back to work now....yawnz....
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