Yupz...another Sunday...very long never blog le...tonight is Chelsea vs Liverpool...exciting match..hope I can be in time to watch it...i want to watch it....will be going to breko alone myself this time...yupz...breko reminds me of her again...
we went there to watch a couple of liverpool matches there. It was very exciting. With the atmosphere there...with the fat gerrardthere...LOL.....think of it..im not going there le....makes me think even more if im there....tink i will make my way to Autosport.
Just thought of her, then suddenly hear "Sorry Sorry" on radio...great....I sms her abt it...received a response.....nice......but then, she asked mi where i am heading to....wow...even nicer....then she proceeded with asking abt y not breko when i mentioned abt going to annie's 2nd pub.....well....guess wat? She ask for my favour not to go there coz he will be there....not becoz of aniting...but scared I will beat him up....ha....will I? nahz...nvm....a sudden thought struck mi....basically, the whole msg was to check, verify and hope I will not go there....she cares abt him...
I know about that...i know...from yesterday conversation....the dagger is already fully into my heart....seriously, it hurts even more now then that nite incident...she has great likings for him....i can sense it...im sensitive didnt i tell anione abt it? ha....I asked "You like him mahz?" "She said yes"....den she proceeded telling me about why they quarrelled and how she promised him that she will not repeat the same mistake....thats the love displayed (I had it before, i appreciate)...willingness to accomodate is a display of love....isnt it? Im not toopid wor...even though im called toopid boi most of the time...hahaha..lame shit...aniwae, i cant believe myself guiding her, explaining to her about how to tok to him....in fact, i feel im teaching her to be with him.....wow....courageous...i cant believe im doing this....i felt so gentleman...yet the pain no one can know....but to mi...as long as she is happie...when have i never done aniting as long as she happie?
I was over possessive...overly protective....i love you......that is y i protect......i protect becoz deep down inside, you are my wife areadi.....and till today, i feel it is never a break up...but a divorce...its different....possessive? your limit is too low...there are even worse outside....y is ur limit so low? have u ever thought of it? its becoz you are still energetic....still love to play....i cant keep up wif u...limit is too low....didnt wanna adjust...you would have adjust if you have realli loved mi...if you want to be my wife.....imagine we are married and living together? Will you still be doing wat u r doing? yes you willl....becoz no one can control ur life except yourself...ahahaha...from your blog...lol....
oh...i will kill morimoto san soon...coz he said before last time oso buy laptop den the woman left you...now u buy laptop, den.............................. den wth! It happened! lol....aniwae, she needs it lahz...i wouldnt take back...never...she will need it for her studies...when her studies comes...i will oso pay for her.....she needs it....realli...
seriously, i think i cannot have another woman in my life le...i cant trust another woman...i cant treat another woman as my wife......i cant imagine...maybe its for now onli...maybe its forever...i dunnoe....we shall see....but i guess, i have decided to wait...I remember sis (jeremy wife) telling me about her conversation wif her on that night jeremy was caught....about our marriage...she thinks highly about us....but sori to disappoint you sis.....
well, i have been bery hardworking this earli morning...first thing wakie is to remove all my tags inside her fb....i remember telling her to remove all our photos...dun let him see...he will not like it...not every guy is like mi....see...im doing it again...pushing her away....
wait wait...typing this blog areadi took mi 15mins boy! shit...still a long way to go....seriously, i do not know how to describe my feelings now...neither speech nor words can describe it...wah chim....ahahaha....i have been trying hard not to show my family about this hurt....i have been trying hard not to show all my bros and buddies about this hurt...i shall and will keep it to myself......i can never recover....you know...its like whipping your backside at the same spot with a rotan repeatedly...the event keeps following up....ha......ahahahaha...but i have told myself, i will alwaes standby for her...as long as she needs mi...i will go to her side.....she dun have to be at mine....its alright....i cannot stand seeing u sad...or not smiling...i hope he will treat u well...even though some people told mi he is a playboi (including urself, i remembered, in hush office), i believe, if its fate, he will not do it against you.....jiayou....i wish you happiness...realli.....
there was a mistake...for long i have not been reading ur blog...i read over these past few days again and again....so many things i have not resolve it in you...so many things....you have repeated last year and it happens again....also after your birthday....ahahaha...realli....we quarrelled over the same thing after your birthday twice...last year and this year...wow....but there are other positive things...so many things that build our r/s up....build this memorable event with you up....i cannot let go.....it seems like yesterday....1 year 5months...its not easy to be this long for a r/s...so many things been gone through together....so many happy and sad events...oh just like the birthday card i have bought for her...i find it meaningful...fighting my tears back as im typing now....i have decided to continue doing my project....be a man bahz! cannot everytime cry de lahz...ahahaha....even though there are zero morale now...but still have to do and submit! arghz...good nite everyone...take care and i love you before, now and forever.....
snoozed at 6:20 PM .
